Showing posts with label family. Show all posts
Showing posts with label family. Show all posts

Sunday, May 26, 2013

My Trees


One of my "meeting" trees.
Notice the hole punched
in the top of the paper.
It seems I have a thing for trees. Dead trees, especially.  They fascinate me.  I love to photograph them, and I have been sketching them for years, while sitting in meetings at school.  I listen better when I'm drawing.  Seriously.  I have students who do, too.  As a result of the circumstances under which they were created, most of my trees were drawn in blue or black ball point pen.  Many on notebook paper, still others on white, hole-punched copy paper.  Actually sitting down to create a tree on drawing paper using a proper instrument intended for the production of "art" never occurred to me.  Drawing trees with pen was just something I did to keep my hands busy.

And then one day, My Sweetheart asked, "Why don't you ever use colors in your trees?"  Frankly, I had never thought about it.  I thought the trees were fine the way they were, and I was just playing around with them anyway.
"No one creates actual art with ball point pens, sillly!" I insisted.
"Oh, really," smirked He, ever so smugly.  "Google 'Ball Point Pen Art'.  Go ahead.  I'll wait."
So I did.  And in that moment, my whole world changed.  Sometimes I hate it when he is right.  This was not one of those times.
The next day I bought a pack of cheap Bic Crystal Stic pens and started to play with color in an actual sketch pad.

My First Tree in Color

Then Dad went into the hospital.  And all of a sudden I had way too much time just sitting still on my hands.  I had to sketch to keep me from completely freaking out over the fact that we were in a hospital with dad, facing The Big C, facing surgery, facing whotheHellknowswhat, facing hours on end of waiting, and powerlessness, and no control over anything.  

I suck at waiting, and powerlessness, and lack of control.  I suck at it in the grandest of style.  
So I drew.


I started this while Dad was in surgery.
"The Waiting Tree"

Before releasing Dad, the doctors confirmed that it was Cancer.  And this tree was born.  It was utter chaos at its inception, I assure you.

This was originally called Tree of Panic,
but it actually soothed me very well.

The surgery was a success.  They got it all.  No chemo.  No radiation.  Just monitoring.  They got it all!!!  Dad is going to be okay!  







Tree of Life
I posted pictures of my trees regularly while Dad was in the hospital.  People were so encouraging that I decided to experiment with different kinds and sizes of paper, but I'm committed to the pens.  Many have made observations about the look of the trees giving keys to my state of mind when they were created.  They may be on to something.












Tree of Possibilities


Then I started to find my rhythm.  It takes about three nights to finish a tree right now.  I feel so at peace during the time I spend bringing them to life.  This is better than any therapy, and healthier than any addiction.




Tree of Life Two

Tree of Love






 It blows my mind that anyone would want to have one of my trees, but people have asked.  I will do everything I can to make it possible.  I'm working on it as fast as I can.  When they are ready, I promise to let everyone know.




Branching Out











Tree of Inspiration







Cheers!
 Today My Sweetheart and I celebrate Seven years together.  He honored the day by making it an art anniversary.  He gave me a light under which I can actually see the colors in my trees. We live in a very dark house.  I had no idea all those colors were in my trees!  Now I can actually take better pictures of them, too!  I am also the recipient of a new drawing board and portfolio.
Once again I must count myself the luckiest girl I know for so many reasons.  I have an incredibly talented mother who taught me how to draw to keep me from losing my mind. I have a father who is healthy.  I have an amazing family and incredible friends who support and encourage me in all that I do.  And I have My Sweetheart who sometimes knows me better than I know myself.
My life is good.


Saturday, January 26, 2013

Moliere, John Hughes, My Family, and Me.

Picture, if you will, a house (my parents') filled with family deliriously happy to be back together after many months apart. Baby Sis feeds Baby Boy in the kitchen, Sweetheart, Dad, and Baby Sis's Hubs in the living room, debate the merits of modern cinema. I lie prostrate on the living room floor, one of Baby Sis's best friends, Rose, perched precariously atop my posterior, kneading out the knots of my day.

The boys' conversation suddenly swings to Sylvester Stallone movies of old: Rocky, First Blood, Rambo...you get the idea, when Sweetheart pops out with, "That comedy that he did. You know, the one where he played the gangster?"
Sis's Hubs: "Oscar?"
Sweetheart: "Yeah! That one! I loved that movie!"
Hubs: "That was the biggest piece of crap I ever saw!"
Dad: "I have no idea what movie you two are talking about."
Sweetheart: "No, it was awesome! Don't you see? It was meant to be that way!  They were making fun of everything. It was like a Moliere piece : a farce and a total send-up of mob society."
Hubs: "Whatever. I still think it sucked."

Suddenly, my head lifts from the carpet long enough to say, "Moe-lay really pumps my nads!"

Uproarious laughter and guffawing pours from Baby Sis in the kitchen, "'Moliere.'...'I love his work.'"

Sweetheart, Dad, Hubs, Rose, Baby Sis, and I all dissolve into fits of hysteria.  Baby Boy even caught himself a case of the giggles!

I shout out, "Dude, I totally love you! I love that you heard that and nailed it without even thinking!"

Dad chimes in, "She is totally your mother's daughter. Mom can hear any conversation from any room in the house." (I'm not sure he got the reference.)

Me: "I totally raised you right! I'm so proud of you at this moment! I love you, man!"

Seven years separate Baby Sis and me. When The Breakfast Club was released, I was its target audience. She was a little kid. Then it came out on VHS! Remember those? (Humor me. Pretend that you do.) We watched it over and over again at my house, along with Sixteen Candles, Ferris Bueller's Day Off, and the rest of the John Hughes collection. My friends and I were obsessed. I wanted to be Molly Ringwald, or, "Molly Wallringer," as Mom so often called her. I wanted to eat, "Raw fish, rice, and seaweed," out of a Bento box with chopsticks for lunch at school. After I came home from six weeks at North Carolina School of the Arts, I spent the rest of the summer before my senior year in high school eating with chopsticks! I tried to apply lipstick with my cleavage, to no avail. I was flat as a board.

"I can't believe my grandmother felt me up!" Baby Sis and I used to laugh together about our grandmother who constantly bemoaned my lack of physical endowment.

"So that's how it is in their family..." The words of Principal Rooney still echo throughout the halls of our house whenever anyone does anything ridiculous, which is more often than not.

I got to thinking today that John Hughes penned the dialogue that has accompanied the better part of our lives. Then, as I started writing this blog post, I realized that it wasn't just John Hughes movies that stitched our social and cultural foundation. So many other phenomenal films have woven themselves seamlessly into the fabric of our everyday lives over the years that we hardly realize it anymore. The lines slip out as naturally as we utter our names.

Any mention of lotion or a basket will automatically prompt one of two  responses: "It rubs the lotion on its skin. It does this whenever it's told or else it gets the hose again," or "Put the F*cking lotion in the basket," from The Silence of the Lambs.

If cannoli is on the menu or someone breathes word of a firearm, "Leave the gun. Take the cannoli," from The Godfather.

And, of course, if rules should ever come up, "The first rule of Fight Club is 'Don't talk about Fight Club.'  The second rule of Fight Club is 'Don't talk about Fight Club.'"

These quotes, homages really, are out of our mouths before we can stop them. This, I might add, is true of most of my friends. I have to say, I love that about us! I love that we have embraced so much of what Hollywood has to offer that we have integrated it into our everyday vernacular. I will admit, though, it is a challenge some days to keep those lines inside my head and out of my mouth at school when fed, by a middle schooler, the perfect lead in to, "Put the f*cking lotion in the basket!"

So that's how it is in our family. And I wouldn't have it any other way!