Saturday, July 20, 2013
And This Is Why I Never Slow Down
Like most of us today, I tend to overcommit. On any given day I have more to do than I have hours in the day, and I am kid-free. I have no idea how all of you moms do it. Beyond teaching, I can't even imagine adding my own offspring to the mix! Inconceivable! I have enough trouble getting myself together every day, let alone another human. The thing is, when I have a responsibility to the girls I teach to be there to teach and learn with them every day, and I have a responsibility to the cast of whatever show I am working on to show up ready to work every night, and whatever else happens to be on my plate at the time, I am going to do everything in my power to be there. I am going to show up. I am going to pour every ounce of energy, blood, sweat and tears I have into making sure I am there to give my kids and my cast, and anyone else in the mix whatever they need to be successful.
| Our production of|
Good Evening, by Dudley Moore and Peter Cook.
That said, I am operating at full speed from the minute I finally forfeit the battle with the snooze buttons on the three, (yes, three) alarms I set in the morning, until I crash head-first into bed at night. Of course, as soon as my head hits the pillow I start making To Do lists for the next day. I have to work to make myself sleep. Does this happen to everyone, or just me? I am exhausted to the point of collapse, and my damn head won't shut the hell up! So I read or surf Pinterest, until my iPad falls and knocks me in the nose. That's my signal that I am sleepy enough that I can finally close my eyes and go for it. How sad it that? Sleepmaker thunderstorm noise playing softly in the background, I drop off into Dreamland. Then, before I know it, the first of the three alarms goes off, and I flail into the fight all over again.
|All My Stuff in My Classroom|
Thursday Afternoon...Lots of Work to Do!
Notice the two cups - caffeine in both!
Students: "We thought you didn't drink coffee."
Me: "So did I."
Did I mention that my grandmother had emergency brain surgery that first weekend, too? Yeah, that happened. She's doing much better now, but still. I was also lucky enough to by asked to write a guest post for her blog by the amazing HotMessMom who just happens to be a rock star and the founder of the MillionMILFMarch! So I needed to write something stellar because her blog is phenomenal and has about a bazillion readers, so no pressure. My stomach is still in knots. That post will go up on her site on August 15th! I had another really special writing assignment to complete, as well. See? It's not like I've been busy lately or anything. Exhaustion just seems to be my natural state of existence.
|The Beach Betties|
Then I came home and still had time to be still, my body finally realized it, and it caught up with me. I came home from #BettyBeachWeekend on Monday afternoon. I woke up Wednesday morning with all signs pointing to a Hellacious sinus infection. Throat on fire, head so full I thought it would burst, pain everywhere, sonofabitch! Thursday I spent in bed, but made a doctor's appointment for Friday, then Thursday night broke out in the most irritating rash on the back of my neck. And then it spread. By Friday morning I was itching and had welts all over my torso and neck. The doc was impressed. My sinuses were bleeding and my body was attacking itself! A steroid shot and prescription for antibiotics and some kind of Benadryl-on-crack later I've lost a day to being drugged into sleep, and I'm still itching and covered in welts. My throat and head still hurt, and I want to scratch my skin off! If I take the meds again, I'll be asleep again... Ugh!
|This is after the meds!|
How do you do it? How do you do everything all the time and still maintain your sanity and your health?